I get a lot of pleasure out of trying to make different things to eat. My attempts to feed myself are approached with enthusiasm. The act of eating however is a different story.
I miss Lisa's company more in the eating than in the cooking. I guess because I'm not the cook she was I can separate the kitchen experience from the eating experience.
And it's the eating experience where I have problems. Especially in the evenings because Lisa and I ate together in the evenings.
And part of the thing is that other than a handful of meals, I haven't eaten for pleasure or derived pleasure from eating since Lisa passed away.
I eat food for fuel. Period.
Mind you, I try to make things that taste good and give me culinary pleasure, but any derived pleasure is a secondary thing in my brain.
I just ate some chicken breasts I grilled yesterday, they were dressed in various seasonings, Dijon mustard and balsamic vinegar and had lovely grill marks.
Just food.
Just fuel.
Dinner time is lonely time. At least it's a reminder of that.
Sorry for the downbeat. Just had to get it out.
Peace,
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Don't get me wrong, I like that whole tribe... I'm just wanting a second look for the newbies on bottom since they don't have name recognition to fall back on and they wrote terrific pieces this week.
I'm on my phone, so I can't easily link their entries. But the poll is here:
http://therealljidol.livejournal.com/57
Also go check out my other favorites below (who aren't in danger so they don't need your vote as badly, just good reads). I wanted to do a true rec list, but I didn't have time until now. Sorry this is sloppy :/
http://milk-and-glass.livejournal.com/6
http://alien-infinity.livejournal.com/2
http://alleyalligator.livejournal.com/8
http://armyandleg.livejournal.com/2
http://porn-this-way.livejournal.com/10
http://whipchick.livejournal.com/15

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I just have to share this. I just bought this toaster for my husband for Father's Day. Tim's birthday is the same day, so he's getting one too.

Ike is doing in-house therapy for the next two weeks. We can't leave the house and Elli and Gwen are across the country. Sounds like an opportunity for me!
I decided to start slow today. The Master Bath. I pulled everything off of shelves, opened drawers, tossed ten year old makeup, expired medicine and products that are just OLD. I even cleaned the drawers and shelves themselves. Everything in that bathroom is reorganized and has a beautiful mise en place. I was even able to move the first aid supplies from the bookcase in the bedroom (with the adult reading collection) to one of the medicine cabinets.
Then I washed the entire bathroom down. Woot! Go me!
I wanted to start small. A small room that I could go over with Gray in tow. I then folded a couple of loads of laundry. Logic would dictate that I do the Master Bedroom next, but since the girls aren't here...I'm going to go do their room next. It will go a whole lot faster with them gone.
Currently Gray is napping and Ike is working with the therapist. I need to figure out what to do for dinner. But next? Another load of laundry I think.

My author copies of Flight of the Godkin Griffin have arrived! They look pretty spiffy, I tell you! Sofawolf did a nice job on them, and the interior illustrations look great in the shaded pencil grayscale… though maybe my favorite little flourish was the Godson’s signature, which they scanned from a drawing I gave them. Very fancy!
This will be my ninth book in print (as opposed to available as e-book only), and the second to come from a small press rather than from me directly. It is weird to think of myself as an author with multiple novels in print, but… there you go.
It’s funny, when I was doing the painting I wasn’t altogether sure it would work as a cover. But I think it turned out just right…! Pretty cool. :)
But anyway. Shiny!
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